Today at work, I had a student who tried to cheat on a quiz. I like to think I have a pretty good relationship with this student. We used to have a terrible relationship, but I prayed and prayed for God to build a bridge from his heart to mine and God answered. It was wonderful! What an awesome example of God's love and answers to prayer, right?
.... then today happened. He was obviously looking at another student's quiz. He readily admitted that he looked at her paper. I told him that while I couldn't let him finish that quiz, I would like to offer him a different version. He got angry and told me no, he looked at her paper, that's fine just give me the zero.
Tonight I thought back on today and realized how often I do that with God. God offers me forgiveness but I don't accept it because I know I sinned. I know the sin was wrong. Some of the sins I am most ashamed of are the ones that I don't want to release to God and accept forgiveness for.
Today was a bad day at work. Things didn't go according to plan. I had to work late. I wanted to be outside. But then some great things happened: my roommate told me I could eat her food so I wouldn't have to go to the grocery store (!) and I got to go on a run. On my run the sun was setting, the temperature was perfect, I got to wear my current favorite running t-shirt, the azaleas were blooming, the cicadas and crickets were chirping, and I ran into three friends, one of which I hadn't seen in about a year. I was running and running and grinning and praising God! What a great God that loves me so much to give me such a great end to the day. Our God is so good!
